I was exhausted from so much travel and happiness. I had been traveling for most of a month to see family in different parts of the US. I was riding in the back seat of our explorer because the sun was too hot up front. I had been lying down because sitting up was too much. I got a call. It was my manager from work. A place that I hadn't been to in 10 months. I was so excited to hear from him! And this time I was able to hear better than usual. That was awesome! He was inviting me to eat lunch and go bowling with my team the next day. I was like..."Heck yes!" I knew I couldn't pick up a bowling ball but I could be there. He told me to call my leave of absence caseworker to make sure it was ok. I did. She said it was fine but to be aware that other people may have a perception that if I could go to lunch I could go to work. I told her that I wasn't worried about that because it was her that makes the decisions. Not them. Besides, she doesn't know my team.
When I got off the phone I told my husband. He was in disbelief. He told me I wasn't up to it. I told him that I knew that but I was going anyway. I had to stop to go to the bathroom every 40 miles for the rest of the trip home.
The next day I planned every detail carefully. When I woke up I felt like it would be impossible to go. I rested and hydrated. I opted not to shower or put on makeup. I brushed my hair but that really just made things worse. I wore a long comfy dress, took a lot of water and powerade, mapped the location on my phone and headed out the door.
80 degrees feels like Dante's inferno to me. I am so glad that I have air conditioning and that I had the presence of mind to put the sun shades in my windshield the last time I had driven. It was an hour drive to get there. I listened to itunes and practiced singing La Vie En Rose over and over. Maybe one day I will get a video.
When I arrived I was exhausted. It was so hot! There was no parking at the restaurant. No disabled parking anywhere that I could see. I ended parking a few lots away and started my trip with my walker out of the parking lot and over the broken sidewalk. I arrived at the front door of the establishment winded. Walking slow has it's advantages. I could look at the different doors to determine where I should enter. I chose the one with the mat. It turned out to be the right choice. I opened the door and made my way in with my walker. I noticed a man at the end of the long hall. It was Jason! My friend! I was so excited but I couldn't make my feet move faster. He called out to him and I wished he would come closer. I finally reached him a little over half way down the hall. I hugged him. He said everyone wanted to see me. I told him that I needed to go to the bathroom. He pointed it out but said I should say hi to everyone first. He didn't know what he was asking but I followed him. He went around a corner and told me to wait so he could introduce me. I wish I could remember everything he said. I know he asked for everyone's attention and the roar of conversation halted. Eventually he said, "The Sooze" to which everyone whooped and cheered and clapped. I felt so loved before I even saw them. I walked around the corner and felt the love and joy and acceptance. I am an assembly empath which means that I feel the undercurrent of emotions in groups of people. At this moment it was a glorious spiritual gift. I was soon surrounded by people who were hugging me and telling me how happy they were to see me. After about four hugs I had to start sitting down between hugs. It was an amazing thing to be overcome by the energy of love. When they were done I went to the bathroom. I was surprised to find a perfect disabled bathroom with room to navigate my walker and do my business. The door wasn't too heavy so it was ok that there wasn't a button to open it.
I sat at the end of the table happily chatting with Nikki, Jason, Daniel and Jeff. I pulled out my phone to take pictures and discovered I had left it in my car. 😔 I ordered food and had fun. I then realized I was missing out on a bunch of people at the table. I moved to sit between Phay and Daniel. I chatted with the friends around me until my food came and then I quickly got tired. The table was picnic table style with no back. Brady came over to chat. Then I excused myself to sit in my walker. It's really a rollator with a seat. It has a back I can lean against. After I felt a little better I used my feet to roll down the side of the table and talk to more friends. Then I was exhausted. I told my manager/friend/kindred spirit that I wouldn't be going bowling. I asked Phay to box up my food. I said goodbye to everyone as they left for bowling. Nikki walked me out to my car. It turned out she was parked close by. She helped me put my walker in the car. I found my phone. We took a selfie. Then I drove home daydreaming about this blog post. Jim encouraged me to finish my book. He wants to know what happens next. As I write this I am loving people, life and the joy that is in it all.
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